The last few years have been difficult. Not just for me, but for everyone.
At one point I lost my raid array with my website on it, taking it with it my content. This has been a minor inconvience which I've procrastinated over.
First off, we had the pandemic. That wasn't exactly great. I now find I can't concentrate that well in the office (I only work there 2 days a week) and that people are a great distraction. I can say that dispite this, I do miss interacting with people, dispite being an introvert.
Last year, my mum died of a brain tumor. I'm not sure how to feel about this. I'm supporting my dad and my son (although I only see my son part time) through it. Although my dad doesn't say it, I can tell he is lonely. I try to spend as much time as I can with him and my son, but I have a life too. I just feel guilty for not always being there.
My son is 8 and he gets upset when thinking about his Grandma. I can't say I blame him. I just try to make sure he can talk to me about it, if he needs to. I was 5 when my grandad died and I wasn't really sure what was going on. It felt like something that I wasn't meant to be a part of. My family put a brave face on it and moved on. Just like always.
Slowly, I feel like things are now starting to come together.